Cape Cod Kwassa Kwassa

My biggest enemy, Jealousy has just arrive.

I was in cafeteria having late dinner which I have not done for a while already with a friend whom I have not been hanging out for a bit. It was nice catching up with random stuff. I like to talk to people who I can easily click with, which happens often but not regularly. I hate those awkward moment where you don't know what to say and stuff.

Suddenly, I heard people singing birthday song loudly. It was for a friend, by another group of friends-classmates. Of which some, I heard over the grapevine regularly talks about me behind my back, or at least ditch me most of the time. Fun moments that usually take place months ago no longer seem to linger much.

Surprises never comes in good way for me.

My friend whom I was having dinner with wanted to go back and I didn't even bother about the event that was going on. On one hand, I felt left out for not being invited to join in the surprise because I'm known to be the kind of person who likes to celebrate other people. Nevertheless, perhaps they already noticed how much lately I like to go out on my own, alone.

I'm such a loner.

Whom once upon a time a social butterfly.

Sigh.

Although yesterday, I had slightly better day going out with another really old good friend whom I've last seen when I was in Form 2 back in high school which then he already graduated from school later. He didn't proceed with Engineering course which he dreamed about and currently working as a researcher on law cases and going to be a lawyer soon.

He picked me up with his Volkswagen Beetle and it became my first time ever to ride one. We headed to KLpac to watch The Swimming Instructor which was really good show. Before that, we had random dinner snack at some hawker since we both are slightly frugal and apparently its located on Jalan Punggok somewhere in Sentul. It was slightly ghetto but the table was next to a Bentley showroom.

I bumped into u-Jean, whom apparently work at the ticketing area. We went back to college together later and catch up a little bit. We had McD sundae cone. At least I had a better yesterday.

Off to bed I go now.

Pagi Yang Gelap

Footnoteonheader: Happy birthday to my sister whom I love so much because she is ultimately the savior, help and basically my everything when I'm down and up.

On Sunday, I went to Wangsa Walk with Yah Tyng and Joyce because we wanted to see how the World AIDS Day was like since we heard Tun Dr. M was going to officiate it.

Much to our disappointment, of me coming all the way from Bangi, Joyce from Bandar Tun Razak and Yah Tyng from Teluk Gadong thinks the event was too racially based. Perhaps the volunteers were from a single race and wouldn't approach different race due to shyness and fear or godknows whatever reason they may come up to. We firmly believe that this celebration should be a globalized event where it involved all kind of people from every kind of background.

Apparently, it looked more like a promo event for some Mandarin speaking artists. Everything were in Mandarin.

Big sigh.

We had Popeyes before heading to the shameful arena of disappointment and decided to go to KLCC for PC Fair which happened to be a great bargain day out. I got a Logitech Laser Mouse (which made me broke later on) while Tyng got 2, and a whole bunch of stuff for her relatives whom pre-ordered right when they found out she was going to the PC Fair. Shamefully, I had not enough money to get Seagate external HD for my sister.

Headed to Kinokuniya, the dream but overpriced bookstore for most Bolehlanders. We headed Nando's later since we craved for it earlier the day since we don't fancy Kenny Rogers and prefer Peri-peri stuff.

It was a such gleeful and joyous day, absolutely stress free plus slightly hobo since we wandered a bit hunting for taxi around Wangsa Walk which is the kind of place we never been to and wouldn't want to get lost around. At least I got an American Eagle polo for RM11 from Factory Outlet Store warehouse sale which supposed to cost around RM45 or even around USD39 for the real deal. At least the trip to that part of the world wasn't such a waste.

I feel so much better than last week.

Suddenly I have so much of idea flowing too.

Later that night, I went to Hentian Putra bus station for the first time ever. Back then when I was younger and when dad used to earn more our family stayed regularly in Pan Pacific which is famous for its water-shooting-sprinkle toilet. I went there to meet up with an online friend for the first time whom I promised earlier the week to accompany him and hunt for a room to rent since he just got a job around SS2. However, the plan did not work out really since he found a room in Pandan Jaya. I've had the impression that he may be rather unsure of places around the city but apparently he knows the ghetto much better! Cititel Express has been a favorite stopover, which undeniably a slightly nicer place to stay in Chow Kit.

Got back to college safely, thankfully survived early LRT and did not miss the dumb shuttle bus which commonly leaves earlier; right the moment when I exit the station.

I'm looking forward for better days ahead, despite being rather broke and already trying to save a bit.

Life is expensive therefore get rid of all ATM cards!

Where Did I Go Right?

I became very insecure with life for uncertain reasons, perhaps with the typical people around me on daily basis. Although I firmly believe in what the Victoria Secret Vice President of Public Relations mentioned before; "What people think of you is none of your business. Grow up, suck it and embrace it" has been stuck on my mind and I never failed to bother until most recently which brought me to think about so many things.

I like to think deep, very deep in fact. Its unavoidable.

I just came back from Korean food buffet at Seoul Garden in Kerinchi. It was RM43.32 freakin bucks but thankfully it was unlimited. I'm still very stuffed.

Also, I enjoyed the day because I was with the kind of people whom I can have LOL moments in public. Yes, I'm a big laugher and can be annoying sometime but I just like to have fun. Let all the laughter out. Its really stress-free and relaxing.

Earlier before that, I met up with Sheesha whom currently studying in Murdoch in Perth. She is my ultimate IKEA Swedish meatballs partner-in-crime and the only one I eat IKEA meatballs with. Its like our special ritual. We met each other about 4 years ago, exactly around these days before going to Egypt where we went on an exchange program. Back then, I've thought she was the kind of spoilt, typical brat but she is one of the best friend I've befriended. Although she is on her summer break, she will be leaving to Jakarta for some ESQ program and then 5 weeks in Beijing continuing her Mandarin course.

I feel good for being able to laugh after a week of fun deprived as well as being around the kind of people I enjoy having fun with.

I stink and smell like those smokes meat we burned out food just now. Taking shower, off to bed. House hunting for friend from JB around SS2 tomorrow. Let me know if you know any vacant room for single occupant.

Dangerously In Love

I've been practically doing unconventional stuff over the past few days since it officially became an emo week.

I rented a manual Naza Sutera which suck like hell and total crap since I don't know how to drive non-auto vehicles. Crawled from campus to Bangi Section 15 then all the way to the KLIA airport to send fellow thespian, Joycelyn Choong off to USA. She will be there for internship under work/travel program in a snow hotel in the mountains of Vermont.

I hate manual cars. They tend to die whenever I stop. The car sucks, and it made so much funny sounds all the way to/from wherever I was going. Thank god I survived and did reverse parking without hitting the BMW 5-series behind me in the expensive 13bucks-for-5-hours parking lot.

Co-incidentally, I bumped into Yah Tyng before meeting up with Joyce as she and Marvien were sending 60 JENESYS scholars to Japan on a 2-weeks exchange program.

I spent quite sometime in the observation deck. MAHB should have made that area round so everyone can have a 360-degree view of the flight activities.

I just came back from hanging out with my lecturer and his friends around Bangsar's Pelita. Usually, I've only gone there to Nirvana Banana Leaf or Madam Kwan's but this time the food is not too bad, although the price to pay is a kick in the butt

I vow to have a better weekend instead. Will be having Korean buffet dinner, then Malaysian AIDS Council Day in Wangsa Walk on Sunday.

Blue Eyes Crying In The Rain

I ran upwards on moving escalator to catch Sri Petaling train and tripped and fell and torn an inch of favorite Topman coated skinny jeans. Bleeding Inside. FML.

Maybe its payback because I got a new pair of skinny too.

I feel utmost guilt today for spending whatever I plan to spend next week in Singapore. Today was not such a great day anyway. I felt really down, below the regular self-esteem level. It led to spend, which gives temporary satisfaction but lead to another regret later on.

Thank god a friend was around to accompany and the emo-ness went away.

Joyce is leaving to USA tomorrow. There goes a thespian, no more musical and theater kaki for me. More and more friends and partners-in-crime leaving abroad.

I feel worse.

Note to self: Should stop going too overly googoogaga and emotionally unstable. Totally un-afro-ism.